You

It was you who made my first ever hospital confinement,
                                 my first ever experience of unfathomable pain.
Though we lost you but you'll always have a place in our hearts.
We love you our little angel!
We know you'll always be watching your twin.

Both of you made me had my first ever unfathomable happiness of success and of my ultimate experience of God's answered prayer.

Then, we have finally you.
It is you who made us child again.
It is you
     and a never ending reasons of how inspired and happy we are to go on with our everyday lives.

Your innocent smiles coupled with your smiling-almost-gone eyes and hearty laughter, change our lives.
You are our bundle of joy but we know you're more than just it.
You're a survivor!
      and you bring us double happiness!

Finally, In The Office

So far since we'd transferred, I finally felt I'm working. Though we're just two but somehow I no longer felt isolated. I found myself belonged though in reality not. Every time I went down usually to answer a call of nature, I saw them there. I felt again the normal aura of an office where people are silently working. Maybe then and I think for sure this is our last stop. And maybe then, our Christmas would be different.

Jaiden's First Birthday Bash!

Whew! that was how I felt when the party ended. It was exhausting but fun and memorable. I hope the kids and the adult guests felt the same way minus the exhaustion. hehehehehehehe.....

Since there was no mass in the Basilica del Sto. Nino in the afternoon of yesterday, June 28, 2011 we were contented to have just visited the church and said our little prayer of thanks for having our first baby's birthday.

We were already almost inside the Sto. Nino's sacred place of adoration when suddenly Jaiden let out a small cry when he observed and looked around the place. His face looked like he didn't feel comfortable. I think it must had been the cave-like structure inside or whatever it was. So I immediately went out of the place before my birthday boy would be hysterical. At the outside of the church, we had a lady "sinug" (a dancing-ritual prayer to the Sto. Nino thanking Him for his natal day and for everything) in dedication to his birthday. Then, a few pictorials.

We arrived an hour and a half earlier to the party venue. Jaiden was already sleepy because it was already his usual napping time. I was just hoping that he would take a short nap on my shoulder which he did, wake up just in time for his party and be in good mood (despite his small nap) when his party would start.

I was surprised when I saw the balloon decorations were beautiful than I expected. I suddenly realized that the some of the decorations weren't what I believed to have paid for in the package. There were lots of flower-shaped balloons in the ceiling. There were also plant-shaped balloons on the tables. What I know was that I only ordered a pair  of pillar balloons with a character topper to be put in front of the stage. But the extra decorations? I know that these were the expensive balloon decoration package Sparkles Balloon has. So I was thinking that maybe those are already the balloons I paid for the Balloon Maker package? Though I know that the Balloon Maker as I understood wasn't for the decoration but for literally making different shapes of balloons to be given away to children guests. So I asked the Sparkles' employee about it and voila! He said that it was a "pakapin!" (extra decorations for free) because GMA's Isyu Karon would feature Sparkles Balloons. Wow! weren't we that lucky?

Just when the party was about to start, I was told that a certain young lady asked permission from my mom that they would get a little video of the party. My mom thinking that they were a video-for-hire business didn't entertain her and informed her to seek the permission from my hubby who was just within the vicinity. Unfortunately my hubby also thought the same, hence their request was immediately declined. However, further explanation from them led to positive approval. Just a sidenote: by this time Jaiden already dozed off on my shoulder.


Unluckily Jaiden was still asleep when the party started. I had no choice but to go in front with a sleeping-beauty baby when the host called up to have the celebrant be introduced and at the same time be sang in (children's) chorus his first (typical melody) birthday song. The singing and the loud microphone sound and music in the background awoke him by surprise. At least he didn't whine. He watched his surroundings and saw a crowd of boys and girls. He was at least remained composed. Then the first game of the party started with the Boat is Sinking. When the host would raised his voice when at times the game was at its climax, Jaiden suddenly jolted which I thought due to the harsh loud sound of the host's voice in the microphone. He jolted for several times until he couldn't take it anymore. He started to cry. I immediately got out of the scene and find some place to calm him. Good because his crying stopped immediately when we comforted him. So that was how his party started. :)


The rest of the party was greeting the long-not-in-touched relatives. It was some sort of a little reunion in both my hubby's family and mine. Thus, it was meeting strangers for Jaiden. I felt some kind of  exhaustion - of smiling and chit-chatting a little. Thus, no wonder it was for our baby also. Almost the whole period of the party, Jaiden was in my comforting ( a shield for him) arms and shoulders. He wasn't his usual energetic self, I think partly because he was a bit sleepy and the crowd and strangers were just too much for him to take with an exception though to children strangers. He blended well with his guests - boys and girls and  the children like him.


By the way we also got a Puppet Show which has helped lightened the mood of our birthday celebrant. He's already used to seeing puppets in Youtube's Skidamarink by SuperSimple Learning. So seeing the puppets of Winne the Pooh and his friends entertained him and so are the kids. They didn't mind that the puppets were thin than should be.


Then came the eating time. Well, I don't like to talk about it here but I think it wasn't that pleasant experience for some? I don't know. It wasn't for me either. However, we managed to keep back on track.


From hearsay, invited children had fun and adults were in awe of the preparation. As to the details of their awedeness? - this I still have to know. :)


Generally, it was indeed a Happy, Happy, Birthday Celebration!!!!!


Happy Birthday baby Jaiden! Mama and Papa loves you so much!!!!!!


Jaiden a derivation of the name Jaidon meaning heard by God. Indeed, God has heard our prayer. Thank you so much Lord!





P/S Please don't forget to watch Isyu Karon of GMA 7 this coming Saturday, July 2, 2011, Saturday at 7:30 A.M. I think my baby and I will be seen there.  :) We might as well be discovered as a new talent (of what?) hehehhehhe

Blogging

I guess, I would  say that my blogging days are almost over. Why? because I hardly have the time to do it after office because my baby demands more of me. I can no longer do it at the office which is okay because as unbelievable as it is, I think it was one of the reason why I am now so deep in the pit of my backlog works. I don't know now how will I be able to do or finish all my backlogs. For the first time in my entire work under my current employer, I am literally backlog of my work! I don't know where to start or what to do first. And again, partly because of my blogging. I was so obsessed with my blogging that any idea or thing that sprung to my mind, I wrote it. You can see that in the past months I was able to make lots of blogs. However, this month it's getting few.

My relationship with this blog site now is I think getting vague as my baby grows and as long as I'm not able to cope up with my job backlog.. wwhhheeewww!!!!!! I don't know. I love to blog and write stuff and all those things that comes to my mind but it's just that I have no control of everything. Well....

Exhausted and Damaging Sunday

We attended our Sunday mass in the Sto. Nino since we planned to go to SM to buy our baby new clothes for his birthday which we planned for him to wear in his pictorial that'll be used in his birthday invitation..

My hubby was right that it's not an always good idea to go to SM if you don't have much money to spare because it has always been proven that we ended up going home buying something unplanned which usually are expensive.

We were able to buy our baby his clothings in a total of P3T+. Quite high huh? Yes, because we bought him two sets of church attire and three sets of house clothings. The unplanned something that we bought is the Vtec's First step walker which Jaiden really enjoyed much testing the toy around the store. He was really showing much enjoyment of the toy, as in! So we bought it at a price of almost 3T. Gosh! I don't know what's next for our baby!

I'm very much exhausted because the stroller is of no use to us in the mall except as his sleeping comfort when he doze off for about thirty minutes. Jaiden wants me to carry him around which I eagerly did. No matter how I know that my body would surely feel all the aches after malling, I couldn't trade the physical bonding I have with my baby. So I carried him around from the near the Flawless clinic area of North Wing to the Otto boutique area and then to Junrex (to see somebody) area then back to near the Flawless area to meet my hubby. It seems just so easy to picture out based in my writing here but believe me I'm physically tired. However, I still took the time to write this blog because this Sunday is an another financially-damaging Sunday but again for our baby - anything is possible as long as we can take it.

Unfinished Blogs

It's barely more than weeks now and my baby's birthday is fast approaching. I have made lots of blogs and promised myself to make one about my the ever challenging and memorable happenings of my life before my baby came to this world. The blog will be a sort of an anniversary tribute of one of the best things that ever happened to my life. But somehow, for reasons I can't seem to figure out yet, I just can't finish it. In fact I've already made two drafts and they're almost in their finishing or wrap up stage.

Maybe it has got to do with one of the facts that I now have very short time to write because my baby now demands more of my time. The moment I arrived from office, I even can't change my clothings because he wants me to carry or cuddle him immediately to the extent that he would cry if I would just pass by him to my room. Now, you don't like that to happen! I wouldn't want him to feel that I'm not excited as he is to see him or that I don't miss him (though it's just hours we're apart). So I really have to scoop him up and cuddle him immediately the moment I step foot of our home. I even have to carry him upstairs to our room then put him down in his crib so that I'll be able to change. Then a waiting baby is staring up at me hoping for me to pick him again immediately. Then we can do our usual things for about two hours.

After I put my baby to sleep, I already find myself exhausted of the playing activities I did with him. So I think this is one of those reasons why I can't seem to finish my said blog.I don't know. I think I just have to tell my baby personally about it.

Another thing is, I realized that it's hard to write about your pasts specially when it happened more than a year already. It seems hard to recall and hard to compress the events in a way that you don't end up writing a book already about your life. I think spontaneous blogging is easy. Writing down immediately if something comes up in your mind and without interruption allows you to finish it on the spot. What I've done about writing my worst and bad experiences during my journey to our baby was writing it in staggered which I think could also be the reason why I'm now lazy to finish it. I don't know yet if I would have the interest. I'm just tired.   

Movie Watching Indulgence

Well, it has been days since I've treated myself to watching numerous movies and setting aside my goal to finish my blog not later than our baby's big day. Hmmm.... let me think..... I have, just more than a month to finish it.... and here I am again, blogging about other things..... well, I think I just can't let this pass.

If I remember it right, I think I had started my movie-watching indulgence last Friday night. I had started with Burlesque starring Cristina Aguillera. The movie was just like Moulin Rouge except that the former has a better story. I find Cristina's acting O.A. but I love his love-interest partner there. While the movie was on-going, the back of mind was saying, "crap! I'm wasting my time!". And as if somebody has heard me, the movie stopped in the middle part. I realized that I was watching a CD copy only and that the downloaded movie wasn't complete. The time was already 11PM and I could just turn off my laptop to sleep but I somehow felt compelled to finish it even though the ending of the movie was too predictable but I don't know, I just finished it. How? well.... the beauty of internet and the Google search engine. I foundnd sites that allowed the movie to be played through internet streaming. So that was it, I finished it! However, still I regretted wasting my time watching it. Crazy me, huh?

I wasn't able to continue my indulgence momentum the following night as my baby didn't allow me to do so. So I had it on the afternoon of the following day. I watched.... hhmmm...... I forgot....wait for a sec...oh yeah! I remember it now. Just like the movie is unforgettable, no wonder I find it hard to remember now. I watched The Last Song movie of Miley Cyrus. Yikes! I don't like her! I don't like watching her crooked teeth (oooppsss!!! heheheh sorry!!!). I don't like watching her trying to act as a tough teen. She came out trying too hard to act.  However, the movie made me feel as a teen again.. hahahahha!!!! I miss those times!!!

That same night, since my baby slept earlier than usual, I was able to watch Eat Pray and Love by Julia Roberts. The movie run approximately 2hours which just made me sleep late, again! It was just okay. I think the movie fits for those established single women who are at a loss of their track. Maybe this movie will enlighten them. It's a simple, complicated thinking movie. It opens you to a world of a person who has it's unique complex problem when on the other side of the world there are just people who simply are having problems of transversing their everyday lives and of having difficulty making their ends meet. It just made you realize that everyone has it's own purpose on this world, that nobody's perfect and that every person has its own puzzle to solve.

Last night and I hope that was the end of my indulgence, I watched Remember Me of Robert Pattinson. I guess, I have made a good choice of choosing that movie as a closing of  my movie-watching spree because I was moved by it. I was kind of expecting a light-romantic-drama movie considering Rob is there but I was wrong. The story's conflicts are deep and I have to say that Rob did a good job in acting his role. I conclude that the movie is nice. Oh, by the way! the way Robert acted his drinking of the beer and carrying his cigarette smoking, I kinda have a feeling that he's a smoker in real life? because he seems to act it naturally. Anyways, that was it my movie-watching spree.